Loss and the change of perspective

From the loss of the love of your life to a near-death experience, it is part of our ascension process.
For me, the loss of my son was the last straw for the shattering of my encapsulation in my shell. I could no longer hold myself in the world as I had known it and seen it up to that point. Experiences like this are the beginning of the falling away of life as it was known. I have worked in alternative and mainstream psychology all my adult life. I had worked in interracial family practices and studied with my professors as they started programs in this area. I spent my adult life researching and supporting healing. I worked in practices that included medications and processes that I sincerely felt were wrong, and I knew there was no choice for me if I was to remain licensed. I put myself through school and was deeply invested in my work. Many of the practices worked within the context of just helping kids and families survive and adjust to the circumstances they were living in.

In my life, I had figured out in my adult years I did not trust my Doctors to help me. I had epilepsy and did not want to live on Tegretol. A medication that put me to sleep. I went to a Naturopath (Biogenesis), and she helped me. I also participated in breath-work as a profound way to clear trauma and became certified with Stan Grof. My epilepsy was no longer a problem. No medications for me after that! No matter what happened in terms of accidents, I did not take pain medications and stayed with anti-inflammatories when I experienced severe injury. I studied and stuck with as clean a diet as I could. I stayed on pure meat protein since this supported the epilepsy issue, and my brain worked better. I kept my diet balanced so I was not overly acidic. I stayed with natural Herbal medicine when I needed support.
After the lockdown, I started cleansing parasites. I believe my body was infested with parasites, and I was only healthy due to my diet and clean thought and action. I have maintained my integrity and honesty despite the challenges this presented. I got into trouble because I decided to be true to myself, no matter the price. And believe me, there is a price. However, I saw early in my studies that the psychology of humans is based on motivation and the alignment with truth in the person. The ability to face reality in a consistent pattern is essential. In that process, I realized I often did not see or understand reality. I felt blind. As I grew and healed, I saw more of reality. I learned to question my motives and understand my intentions. This helped a lot. We lie to ourselves. We allow others to lie to us. We want to believe lies. It is hard to live without lies. In a way, we are born into a world filled with false reality, and then we must sort that out as we grow. First, we have to realize there is natural and there is fake. Mental illness, especially today, has to do with not being able to make these distinctions.

Awakening, for me, was a de-ascension, not an ascension; I started to see. Everything I had believed was false and had been fed to me. I realized I had to question everything. I began to have experiences that could not be explained. I experienced otherworldly events that were indeed negative. I met and trusted people who were definitely on the “dark side” and wanted to keep me close and enslaved. Their presentation was positive, but their intentions were not. I broke away from each situation and experienced the pain of those losses. Once I lost my son, I was done.
Awakening meant letting go, truly letting go of all I believed and everything I stood on. I let go of friends, family, and work situations that were like family, and step by step, walked out of a complete end of life as I had known it. It was amazing how much negativity people will direct at you if they think you are of a different belief, point of view, or lifestyle than the one they agree with. People tried to help but were still in their reality and believed all the BS I had thought. When I saw the deterioration around me in schools, around childhood sexuality, and freedom, I became shocked. As a result, I was not seen anymore. This was not a mental health failure. This was an increase in clarity and ethics. But my filter was gone. I was more honest and direct than ever. More sensitive and empathic. My mental health increased in accuracy, and I started to have difficulty understanding where to work, where to live, and how to fit in! Abilities increased that were inaccessible to most people around me. Suddenly, clocks were always on the same numbers. I knew people were about to contact me. I could see what was coming around me before it happened. I could feel the people around me, and I understood their feelings so that nothing was hidden. Then, I got sick and had a near-death experience where I received help. Negative “things” were removed from me, and seals were placed over my energy centers. After that, I felt more contained, grounded, and able to manifest easily again.
I SAW that kids were not surviving this world as we have made it. I SAW they were not given a real chance at freedom and joy. I SAW that they were being brainwashed and manipulated sexually by mainstream theories, teachers, and treatments. There were more and more chemicals in our food. Science permitted the use of aquafication as a means to dispose of bodies, and this was put in the water supply and then used on crops. Fetal cells were used in our mainstream products. This is a “mixing” that is unethical and against the rules! Schools were like thought prisons. As kids were hitting their teenage and older years, they were choosing to exit through drugs, overdose, and give up. These drugs were readily supplied in their surroundings.
I could not believe it. This was not the world I had felt in. I was very New Age. I did not buy religion either. Churches seemed to have been infiltrated and spit out the same BS. Most of the time, they were closed-minded, physically unhealthy, and addicted to media. I felt lost and alone. I had paranormal experiences that were not pleasant. I was in a fight against what felt like real demons—visited and attacked me at night. I stood up for myself, which may have been the point! I learned to dig deep. Eventually, I grew silent about my struggles. I had several bringer experiences of healing and help. It was my near-death experience that brought me into a Christ Consciousness and healing that was so profound I have never been the same. I experienced GOD inside of myself and myself within GOD. I knew my goodness. I knew my bravery. I knew my spirit and felt seen for the first time. I saw my mistakes and felt shame. I repented on such a deep level that the reality of humanity and the truth of ethics emerged. What was false in my life fell away. I did not die. Actually, after some time, I lived. My work got “light years” better and more helpful to others.
All of my clients are in their waking-up process. We are in some revelation and enlightening process where we must sort ourselves out quickly and honestly and get our footing. I am filled with so much love and understanding for our process as humans, and I hope we will all find unity. We must live ethically and honestly. We have to help each other. We must “clean up” our diet and behavior to purify ourselves and reach for our best. Some forces at play do not have our best interests at heart. Once we see this, we can stand up for ourselves and each other—especially humanity’s children who need our protection.
It has been several years since this experience. I took my time in my return. I raised animals and sat in the woods and healed. What a fantastic ascension experience I have been having. The biggest challenge is letting go and stepping forward into the life I chose for myself. I know we are choosing everything. I take responsibility for everything in my life. Each of us has to do this as a part of our ascension. I was allowing ourselves to grow, move into new experiences, and know our goodness. I know GOD. I am ready to fight for goodness and GOD in every aspect of our lives.
If you are beginning or progressing in this process, starting and remembering the basics is essential. Stop eating all packaged food. Go organic, grass-fed, clean, and easy-to-prepare food. Question everything you ingest. Your body is one unified intelligence. It will understand and engage in the cleaning and purification that will allow you to see the truth and then live in it. That is the first basis for the rest. Get outside in clean air and sun. Jump in the ocean and walk in the woods. Take your shoes off and feel the earth. Throw away the television and detox the mental images. QUIET THE MIND. FEEL THE HEART AND THE GUT. Cleanse parasites and heavy metals from your body. Start juicing and using clean organic products. Give up sugar and use clean alternatives. Get in the game on this level. Your mind will clear, your mood will rise, and you will be able to feel stable and healthy. Connect with others, develop warmth from the heart and gut, and leave your thoughts. When you receive impressions, follow your internal guidance and intuition. Don’t analyze it. Just move out and go toward that, which feels like a blessing. No matter what you are going through, your life will improve step-by-step.
Lastly, if I can do this, then you can too. We can do this. We can do it together. We can feel joy, love, and everything we desire to be in THIS LIFE, but we must be willing to let go and move forward.